❛My Semi-Introduction❛

So,I thought long and hard about what to write or how to introduce myself. I was scared because I didn't have anything funny or witty to say. I was scared nobody would read it but that's OK because I'm doing this from the heart. Vlogging / Blogging has always been a passion and a dream of mine. I'm sharing my thoughts,My fears,My life and everything with you guys.. I'm not perfect but Excellence sorta runs through my blood lol......" Always look when other people chose to close their eyes,Speak when other people are scared or don't know what to think,Listen when every ones to busy covering their ears and be you when everyone else chooses to be someone else"-ME... Welcome to Life....

Random Side Note

Everyone's always pull-pitting(preaching) for people to just be themselves but when they are ,their never excepted... Does anybody else see something wrong with this?

        Popularity is for mediocre people.......

Im not looking for popularity or praise for who I am or something I have yet to do. I honestly don't want a entourage or a group of fake painted faces around me. I don't want spot light or attention for my body.I don't want a turned head ,glance or wink because of who im with or what color my eyes are..... I just want to be excepting of MYSELF and realize that If I don't have to be a model,a tumblr chick or video girl to be intriguing or loved..I want a real,genuine team around me. I have to change what I don't like about myself or Love and stop complaining about it.

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       The simple things I want are just simply to complicated for my life.....

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atelophobia	:
	The fear of imperfection, of not being good enough. Example:I wish I was good enough for them, I have atelophobia.

(I always feel like being me isn't good enough for a chosen few..Maybe one day ,but i don't have time to wait for their acceptance)

Envious of the life I could've had.. So I fantasize about it as much as I can.. I wish things were different. I use to think following trends or  conforming to the Stigma of whats pretty was ,Its something I really had to do. I now realize pretending to be someone your not just to sit with the cool kids ,only makes things worse and you a fraud. I use to try so hard to fit in that I always still wind up standing out. I just wasn't meant to be with the beautiful people... But who decides what beauty really is anyway?.... (Brief S/N)Im currently struggling to believe the concept I just wrote before this random side note... People use to say if you think or say something long enough that it will become fact. I sit and wonder how many times will I have to say ''Your beautiful or Your fine the way you are", Before I'll believe that 100 percent.. Hopefully One day I'll smile and think of my flaws as a bonus for the people in my life. lol

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No sleep til brooklyn.but.
Fashion has no birthplace..
(Neither does beauty)